My mind has been in emergency mode
like the state I am living in.
It does not clear up. The blood moon rose
And brought the fog to me, so I would feel.
I have so many emotions inside of me that I couldn’t reveal,
the time was never right.
It has nothing to do with my life,
It has to do with others around me.
Others, miles away, losing their homes,
Losing their loved ones.
I hear their screams and
Feel their pain.
How can one defected car – or one person alone
Destroy the beauty that was once there?
Even now I feel I am walking through a forest
Filled with dusty fog.
I don’t want to be there, in that place.
It influences my reality and I can not protect my thoughts.
Tears flow from my eyes and I can not help
But let them run.
It’s a clearing necessary for too many are in shock.
They can not feel.
The Carr Fire. Hundreds of evacuations,
So many losing their home to the fire. So many losing their past.
It is so close to us.
Not as close as the Klamathon fire –
But close enough so that even Mount Shasta
Disappears from my sight because of the smoke in the air.
Headache, tears running, I can not shut out
The immense pain I feel inside my heart.
It’s the curse of being an empath,
Being able to perceive everything.
I know it’s close and not everyone understands it yet.
A lot of the fires have not been happening because it is “Fire Season”.
They were done intentionally by people
Who want us to be in fear.
And though I used to have shields around me
That were able to protect me from pain and anger,
I have opened up through the Blood Moon
And I feel more than I ever thought I could.
The world is crying.
Water on the East, Fire on the West in America.
Other countries suffer, too.
We need people who heal the earth from the suffering.
We need to find a way to change our thoughts,
Stop fighting anger with anger and hate with hate.
A lot of things are as they are, because we fight too much.
Only through acceptance will we be able to cleanse.
I will not deny my anger and pain to come out –
I will allow them to be there.
The tears of clarity, the prayers within me
That one day there will be peace on earth.
The world needs people who care,
Not robots who walk through the world without emotion.
We are allowed to feel, allowed to be real.
We NEED to be real.
And while the fires dance around us people,
While the world is turning red,
I will learn to dance myself –
And tune into my inner fire so I can stop the fire from within.
Through peace, calmness,
Knowledge, wisdom,
Truth, oneness,
Faith and Allowance.
Helen Davies
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